Under the Macrocosmic Apoptosis Signal

So who does “God” remind you of most from the cast of HEROES (the series)?Obviously you can only answer if you have good familiarity with the show and its characters — and you can really only comprehend the answers under those conditions too.

Malady answers:

NOAH BENNETT

Because:

 

• He always has something more important to do
• He always has an excuse for why he has no time for you
• No matter how much you need him someone else will always matter more
• You never get to have your turn to matter because someone else always takes precedence
• And you bes not allowed to complain about this either or else you bes a horrible person everyone should hate and hurt
• He wants you to believe he bes always there for you BUT INSTEAD he bes nothing but absent allatimes
• He wants you to believe everything he does — even totally blowing you off and never being there for you — he does for YOUR best interest
• He thinks everything can be smoothed over and he never has to actually change anything he does, he can just keep on lying and making excuses and blame all the hurt on you instead
• He couldn’t protect you from Sylar, could he…
• No matter how much he claims he loves you, he never lets you forget you bes adopted
• He wants your respect and gratitude but doesn’t want to do anything to earn it; in fact he’d prefer you just eat his $h!t…
• Oh, and surely it cannot be pure coincidence he just happens to be a dead ringer for that creepy dude Michael Douglas played in Falling Down?

We will leave it to the reader to determine for himself or herself how deviance shall be defined, and thereby avoid embroilment in stale political and moral debates. Suffice it to say everyone knows the dirty place inside whether through fearful aversion or immersion therein.

Now as all sexual deviance arises from trauma impact (traumatic event or pattern of abuse at any degree, or both) it stands to reason that living out sexual deviance in the 3-d world can only redound to greater harm and spread of the trauma virally, while affording an increasing cycle in concealment and shame for the enviler. To enter the realm where deviancy transmutates to healing, one must take all one’s deviancey to Yesod for processing.

Yesod being the sphere of the astral and psychic or conversely reflection in the pool of Narcissus and illusion. Both formulae operate in their own fashion to produce healing, by the safe portal to wallow and indulge and thereby, explore, working backwards to the root causality. Divisions of the whole psyche may then aspect roles in this orgasmic deliverance. The original schisms may be relived and their shadows called forth for healing…

(note: work in progress, to be continued later)

So here we have come again.  Ever.  Eternal.  Inescapable.  Always.

Dear God why … why won’t They let us take the exit ramp … why.